Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Complaining and Arguing


What kind of friends are we to be considered if we are not known for our compassion and listening ear? What if instead we are known for our judgment?

Today, my mind is set on a verse. As I continue my journey of knowing Him and knowing more about me, I am more and more realizing my own faults. How often do I argue? How often does my arguing change anything? What kind of friend am I? Am I a friend who supports and encourages another? Or, am I known for my criticism?

Philippians 2:14-16 just so happens to be today's verse of the day for Bible GatewayIt is what I needed, when I needed it.

It says:
“Do everything without complaining or arguing so that you will be blameless and pure, children of God without any fault. But you are living with evil people all around you, who have lost their sense of what is right. Among those people you shine like lights in a dark world, and you offer them the teaching that gives life. So I can be proud of you when Christ comes again. You will show that my work was not wasted—that I ran in the race and won.” 


A few things about the passage stick out to me. First and foremost, do not argue or complain. Can I go a day without complaining? This verse has actually been on my mind for the last couple of days. I have been working on on one aspect: not complaining. On days when you feel lousy, it is actually really easy to just let the complaining nature come out. Today, it is speaking to me on a whole new volume: arguing.


We need to be diligently "working out our salvation"--continuing to move forward and live a blameless life. It is through our actions that we are showing our own hearts. Disputing with others are smaller, hindrances of love.. Some people waste their lives complaining. Many of us (me included) do it. It becomes a habit. I want to take that discontent inside of me, and turn it into being content in my own situations before it becomes something more than simple complaints. I cannot make the transform myself. I need God to continue working in me, as I overcome my past. He can transform my present moments of complaining and arguing into a thing of the past!


Complaining and arguing with others: Only they aren't always small hindrances of love. They sometimes have big consequences. In the New Testament, the religious group (Pharisees) were well known for their judgmental remarks. What about us, as followers of Christ? Are Christians known for their judgments, rather than their love? How are we perceived by non-Christians? How are we as individuals lives our lives? Are we known for listening and loving others? Or, are we known for our judgmental words? Are we known for our complaining and argumentative nature? For the non-believers and Christ-followers alike, how are we going to let the past affect the future? We may have been complaining and argumentative yesterday, but that does not have to be the case today..


The second thing that strikes me is the goal. Our goal as followers of Christ: to be blameless as Children of God. We live in a messed up world that can definitely affect what we say and do. This world is pretty good at teaching us to complain and argue, not that we need any help in that area. If you are anything like me, you can pretty much handle the "complain and argue" department all on your own. As children, we often imitate our parents in whatever they say or do. As children of God, we need to be the imitation of our great God. We are held to a higher standard. We, too, are judged and will be held accountable for what we say and do. We are children of the King! Think about that..


We need to show ourselves..as the light of the world: through our actions. We have His light glowing inside of us. Are we going to let our light shine? Or, are we going to be selfish and hide our light? We have the goal before us: To run this race and win. We need to be deliberate in what we say and do. Holding to the Truth unswervingly, and choosing to forsake all and follow Him. It does not matter what others say or do, we need to keep digging in His word and find out what it really means to be a follower of Christ. We all have sinned and fallen short of His glory! So often, we, as followers of Christ, we get it wrong. Complaining and arguing as our way of life is getting it wrong. It is sinful and proves how much more we need to be digging into His Word!


When Christ comes again, we will be caught following other "Christians"? Or, will we be caught following only Him? We will be held accountable for our actions. The question is what kind of witness will we have spent our lives being? Someone who is known for judgments, or someone known for showing Christ's love? Someone known for their silence to just sit with you, or someone known for their arguing?

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Brokenness and Humility in Trials


I have a bit preoccuppied, and haven't had time to read or write much. I have been pretty much centered on my scripture reading plan, which is a really good place to read. As a result, I haven't been able to get into "The Practice of the Presence of God" since Sunday. I am going to spend some time reading very soon. I am just not sure when it will happen. I think I am going to get some book reading time in on Thursday since I don't have class on Thursday. I will have the day free..
God has really been speaking tenderly to me about brokenness. After a bad doctor appointment and some other things happening, I just feel really really broken. I know, God is using this time to continue the molding process. Trials are not just something that happen, but God uses them to discipline (part of the molding process) us and draw us closer to Him. I am reminded that we are like jars of clay. God is my potter. He is constantly making me new. Part of the process is to be vulnerable, and allow him to do what He does to make the inner me and my life beautiful. Each moment, hour, day, opportunity, trial, and temptation brings new ways for God to show Himself to me, and continue to build my trust in Him.

I am sitting here, seeking to explain this process of being broken down and being vulnerable to an audience that may not know the Lord Jesus as their Savior. God is my ultimate Father. Like any child, I need discipline. Not to harm me, but it is for my ultimate benefit--It is this process of keeping me on the right path that grows my faith, draws me closer to God, and constantly gives me this amazing intimacy I can have only with my Creator. People will constantly fail me, but God never will fail.

It is this chance to get rid of things from my life that I cherish. It is opportunity of serious spiritual growth and getting "stronger" that I cherish. While I despise the moments of trials running me off the road in a sense, I value the intimacy that I learn to cherish during these moments.

There are many websites bashing brokenness. I know, I just visited a few of them. There are many scriptures on brokenness itself. There will be a list at the end of this blog, as there typically is.

I love what Matthew Henry writes in a commentary on brokenness using Matthew 9:18-26 on the bleeding woman and the daughter of a leader. Jesus is willing to enter into our brokenness with us. If Jesus is risk everything to enter into our brokenness, then it says to me that being broken and vulnerable is worth the emotional pain it may cause and it is worth our own risk. 

It is about being humble, which is a sometimes daily practice of realizing that only by submission to the Holy Spirit can any Christian ever allow God to do His good works through them. Being humble is not about always being right nor is it about never speaking up. Humility in its truest forms is about being able to ask for forgiveness, not need to put on a "false front", and is choosing to not argue. I have tons to learn about humility, and I am in no way there..

It is also about relying totally on God. It is not about relying on my own strength, but that has gotten me nowhere. I know my strength is not enough, and will never be enough. The only One who is enough is Jesus Christ. Only Jesus can carry me through trials and struggles that will come on constantly until I finally die (or at least that is what I am learning from Job 14).

While I have not arrived at humility or total dependence on God, I am realizing more and more this is why this is the season of my life. This is why I am constantly experiencing trials. God is still teaching me, thankfully! I am still learning what it means to be a follower of Christ, and how to live humbly and walk with God daily and depend on Him.

What I find comfort in is God comforting me in this process of trials and messed up feelings..

Job 35:9-10 reads, "The oppressed cry out beneath the wrongs that are done to them. They groan beneath the power of the mighty. Yet they don't ask, 'Where is God my Creator, the one who gives songs in the night?" God comforts us during our darkest times.
Psalm 34:18- The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Psalm 147:3- He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Micah 6:8- He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

James 4:10- Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

Isaiah 57:15- The high and lofty one who lives in eternity, the Holy One, says this: "I live in the high and holy place with those whose spirits are contrite and humble. I restore the crushed spirit of the humble and revive the courage of those with repentant hearts.

James 4:6- But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: "God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble."

Matthew 5:4- God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

Psalm 51:17- The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

2012 Goals


Spiritual

·         I want to be in the Word daily! I joined a youversion bible study tonight, which is going through the Bible in a chronological order to keep me a bit more engaged. I realize that I will need to spice up my time in the word. Originally I wanted to go through the Bible in 90 days, but that is a really unrealistic goal for me to make… So, I have deicded to “try” to go through the Bible in a year using the chronological Bible to keep things interesting. =)

o   Methods: Audio Bible; Reading the three chapters a piece at a time; Reading the chapters preferably in the morning to give me time to digest what I am reading..

o   I want to try to blog about what I am reading/learning as I go through this reading plan. I may end up using the “note” feature on Youversion..Or, I may end up using my blogger account for that.

·        I want to be better at realizing that God is constantly present in my daily life, and learn how to unceasingly pray and commune with Him as I go through daily tasks. I want to learn how to show my love for God through doing tasks versus putting off tasks, because after all—it is tasks God has given me to do.. so, why put it off?

·         I want to READ more in general, particularly in my books on Christian Living.. I want to read more than just textbooks this year, despite the fact I am entering grad school..Shooting for the moon, I know =)